PUT ON YOUR RED SHOES AND LETS DANCE

SOMETIMES
I FEEL LIKE
THERE MIGHT BE
SOMEONE KEEPING
A RECORD
OF MY ACTIVITIES
WAITING FOR ME
TO BEHAVE IN A WAY
THAT IS
QUITE BAD
AND THEY CAN
SCOLD ME
AND SHIT TALK ME

WHAT THE
OMNIPRESENT THEY
SHOULD KNOW
IS I AM ALMOST
ALWAYS DOING
SOMETHING
BAD
THAT THEY
COULD SCOLD ME
AND SHIT TALK ME
FOR

THE MAJOR PROBLEM
WITH WHAT THEY
ARE WAITING FOR
IS THAT
I HAVE A CONFIDENCE
THAT COMES FROM YEARS
OF DEALING WITH
FUCKED UP EXPERIENCES,
NOT FROM EGO
SO WAITING
FOR THE MOMENT
OF BEHAVIOR
FOR SHIT TALKING
OR SCOLDING
WONT WORK
BECAUSE THIS CONFIDENCE
COMES FROM
SOMETHING
MUCH TOO FUCKED
UP TO REVOKE FROM ME

THAT RETARDED BROTHER
AND THAT HORRIBLE NIGHT
WITH A RUFFEE AND FIVE
BOYS
WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN
AND THE BI POLAR
SUICIDAL SISTERS
AND MOTHERS
AND DEAD BROTHERS
AND PATHOLOGICAL PASTS
AND THE I HATE KENDRA CLUB
THEY GAVE ME THIS

AND THE PARTICULAR
OMNIPRESENT THEY
CAN EAT SHIT
CAUSE THEY SHOULD KNOW
THEY ARE WASTING
THEIR FUCKING TIME
BOTHERING
SOMEONE
WHO HAS ALREADY
BEEN
BOTHERED
BEYOND

THIS PERSON
WOULD MUCH RATHER
PLAY DAVID FUCKING BOWIE
AND DANCE
LIKE A FUCKING SPAZZ
ALONE IN HER
KITCHEN
AND NOT DWELL
ON ALL THAT SHIT