Monday, November 10, 2008

POOL 2

HOLDING YOURSELF BACK
FOR THE SAKE OF THE PAYOFF
ITS SO FUCKING HARD.
LETS PLAY A CHILD'S GAME
TOGETHER.
GUESS WHO.
I FEEL LIKE I AM 13
YEARS OLD
SITTING IN MY PARENTS HOUSE
ONLINE IN THE
COMPUTER ROOM
HEARING THE DOOR OPEN
AND CLOSE ON AOL.
WAITING FOR SOME GIRL
AT SCHOOL TO SIGN ONLINE
SO I COULD WAIT 10 MINUTES TO
TALK TO HER BECAUSE
I DIDN'T WANT TO SEEM TO EAGER.
WHY IS BEING
EAGER THE WORST THING
IN THE WORLD.
I CAN STILL
HEAR THE DOOR
OPENING AND
CLOSING
WHILE I SLEEP.
LAST NIGHT I SLEPT WITH A
POOL STICK IN MY HAND
AWAITING DEATH
FROM THE LIGHT OUTSIDE.
I DIDN'T HAVE ANY CONTROL
OF WHO TURNED IT OFF
AND ON.
I FELL ASLEEP IN MY CLOTHES
CLUTCHING MY WEAPON
AS I STARED TOWARDS THE WINDOW.