POOL 2

HOLDING YOURSELF BACK
FOR THE SAKE OF THE PAYOFF
ITS SO FUCKING HARD.
LETS PLAY A CHILD'S GAME
TOGETHER.
GUESS WHO.
I FEEL LIKE I AM 13
YEARS OLD
SITTING IN MY PARENTS HOUSE
ONLINE IN THE
COMPUTER ROOM
HEARING THE DOOR OPEN
AND CLOSE ON AOL.
WAITING FOR SOME GIRL
AT SCHOOL TO SIGN ONLINE
SO I COULD WAIT 10 MINUTES TO
TALK TO HER BECAUSE
I DIDN'T WANT TO SEEM TO EAGER.
WHY IS BEING
EAGER THE WORST THING
IN THE WORLD.
I CAN STILL
HEAR THE DOOR
OPENING AND
CLOSING
WHILE I SLEEP.
LAST NIGHT I SLEPT WITH A
POOL STICK IN MY HAND
AWAITING DEATH
FROM THE LIGHT OUTSIDE.
I DIDN'T HAVE ANY CONTROL
OF WHO TURNED IT OFF
AND ON.
I FELL ASLEEP IN MY CLOTHES
CLUTCHING MY WEAPON
AS I STARED TOWARDS THE WINDOW.

THERE ARE THINGS
THAT I WOULD LIKE TO
DO WITH YOU.
I WANT TO EXPLAIN MYSELF.
I WANT TO SEE YOU
SITTING IN YOUR ROOM
ONLINE.
WHAT CAN BE HAPPENING
THAT I CAN'T SEE.
WHERE IS THE
MYSTERY IN THESE SORTS OF THINGS.
THERE'S A POINT OF
VIEW AT A BAR THAT IS
THE SADDEST THAT
THERE CAN BE.
SWALLOW THE POOL CUE
AND PAY FOR MY BEER.

ALL OF THIS IS REALLY QUITE SILLY

I STILL HURT
FROM LAST NIGHT
YOU ARE ABSURD
"WE BOTH HAVE GIRLFRIENDS"
YOU KEPT SAYING
BUT THIS HAPPENED
YOU HAVE TO STOP CALLING
ME
I THOUGHT
THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA
BECAUSE OF
THE NEEDED SPACE
SURE, IT WAS
BETTER
THAN ANYTHING ELSE
ANYONE ELSE
BUT STILL
I DONT LOVE YOU
I NEVER WILL
YOU CLIMB ROCKS
I WRITE POETRY
NEXT TIME
I WILL NOT SCREAM SO LOUD
I PROMISE

Forgetting how to walk
and understanding how to drive
are two separate things you
must know how to do in order to
live but at
some point become
some of the hardest things
to accomplish.
Continuing to grow
is one of the most important
things you can do
with this time.
Preaching is the shittiest.
Here we go.