YOU WILL NEVER READ THIS, YOU DONT READ BOOKS YOU STUPID IDIOT I COULD HAVE BEEN SWEET TO YOU

I HAVE A SLIGHT HEADACHE AT ALL TIMES
I AM ALONE IN MY APARTMENT
DOING WHAT I ALWAYS DO WHEN
IM ALONE IN MY APARTMENT
LISTENING TO IRISH FUNERAL MUSIC
AND READING JEAN RHYS THAT I HAVE
ALREADY READ
AND DRINKING WHITE WINE
WHILE THE CATS SLEEP ON EITHER SIDE
OF ME
BEING ALONE IS THE BEST FOR ME I KNOW
AND FOR YOU
IT IS THE BEST FOR YOU THAT I'M ALONE
RIGHT NOW
BUT BABY
I WANT YOUR FRAIL FRAME IN MY BED
SO BAD
I WANT YOUR SHARP TEETH
SO BAD
IM NOT AFRAID TO SAY YOUR NAME
JAKUB
YOU STOPPED CALLING ME
I DELETED YOUR PHONE NUMBER
NOT OUT OF MALICE
BUT TO KEEP MYSELF
FROM BOTHERING YOU WHEN I DRINK
TOO MUCH
AND LOOSE CONTROL

I WAS ON THE TRAIN YESTERDAY MORNING
I CAME FROM A MAN'S HOUSE
HE WAS CRUEL
I STOOD AT THE FRONT OF THE TRAIN
THE SPEED WAS WEARING OFF
I COULDN'T STOP TOUCHING
THE BRUISES ON MY BACK
I THOUGHT ABOUT
GETTING OFF AT THE LORIMER STOP
AND SITTING ON YOUR DOOR STEP
UNTIL YOU EMERGED
SO I COULD FEEL
PROTECTED
I HAD THE SENSE NOT TO BOTHER YOU
SO I ROAD HOME
WATCHING THE TRACKS BENEATH ME
POKING AT
THE SCAB ON MY HEAD
WHERE HE PULLED A HANDFUL OF HAIR OUT
I SHOULD HAVE
TAKEN THE HAIR WITH ME
AND MAILED IT TO YOU